love will win

love will win.
in the end.
anger will cease.
tears flow.
because this isnt who you were raised to be.
because this isnt who i hoped you would choose to be.

but thats what its all about really, isnt it?
choices.
you get to choose.
thats your God given right. your God allowed freedom.

He made it that way.
He loves. Unconditionally.
and He wants you to love. unconditionally.
and He wants me to love. unconditionally. you. me loving you. in spite of choices.

He loves me regardless and always forgives, always extends grace & mercy.
me, not so much.
but i must learn. i must try. because this is the way i was raised.
this is who He hopes i will choose to be.

so i will. regardless.
regardless of anger. regardless of tears. regardless of time.
i will love. unconditionally.
i will extend grace.
i will extend mercy.
i will be like Him.
love will win.

i can't fix this.
i don't even want to fix this.
i just want it fixed.

i want love.
i want to be cherished.
i want to be planned, thought out, thought about, prepared for and made provision for.

selfish isnt love
rude isnt love
carrying on like theres no one else isnt love

does it matter.
well, yes. to me it does.
but to get thru we just make it not matter.
because someday wont be like this.

someday i will matter.
someday i will be first.
someday i will be loved, thought of, and planned for.

someday someone will say - here. this is all for you. i thought of it and planned it and made it just for you. acutally i did this all before you were born. i actually did it all before the world even came to be.
i did this all for you. just because. on purpose.